Lorax
11-01-2004, 10:01 AM
I recently joined this forum, and I apologize if this post does not suit its purpose. I tried writing some of the hypnosis lists on yahoogroups and my messages did not go through. One moderator said it was "too sexy" for his list!! After it went through on one list, someone called it "suspicious". Although I can understand because of some of the websites and other groups I found in trying to get a grip on what happened to me, this is not some sort of "erotic story". It was very real and I feel scared and violated and my feelings are valid. I cannot change the circumstances of what happened to me, so I don't know what else I can say. Please notice that I am leaving out those kinds of details as best I can. I am not trying to offend anyone. I only want to be able to share my experience, and ask your advice.
Although I'm not sure if I was compelled to do something from a hypnotic suggestion, I am quite sure that I was suggested to forget things that I am now only starting to remember. It all started the night I first met her. We were on the couch. She asked if I could close my eyes. I asked her why. She said it was a "relaxation technique" that she used on her lover (who was off somewhere else). I closed my eyes. I don't remember anything after that, until my eyes were open again. I felt very relaxed, and emotionally attracted to her. After a while, she got up, came back back a few minutes later, asked me to close my eyes again. I did.
Later on that night, I saw her sitting with this boy with his eyes closed and thought nothing of it at the time.
A week or so later, she tells me that her relationship was broken up (it was true), and asked if we could go out. We were getting along fine. She was being very provocative and I developed this extreme physical attraction to her. I don't think that would require hypnosis. She is very attractive.
We went back to her place. I got upset over something mean she did. She was acting like she had no idea what I was talking about. She asked me to close my eyes. I was like why would you want me to close my eyes that wouldn't do anything. She insisted, so I did. I didn't know anything about hypnosis, but I had an inkling that is was happened before when we were on the couch. So I remember thinking "OK, I'll just close my eyes and listen and try to catch her if she starts something". I can only remember having that thought now, months later. I never did. I remember finding myself with my eyes closed. She asked if I was OK,. Things seemed different. A felt a loss of time. She seemed angry about something, but denied it. I dropped what I was angry about in the first place and I'm not sure why.
She was acting very cold and distant, and wouldn't talk about it. I felt like she didn't trust me. She let me play with her hair. Later, she smoked something. I didn't. She She was telling me I was really pretty and stuff, and became sexually aggressive in an odd way which made me feel weird. The thing was that she liked doing things to me, often literally behind my back, but would freak out and seem scared and move across the room if I tried to do anything to her. She kept telling me that she just got out of a big relationship. I confronted her that I felt like she was teasing me, but she was very rude and evasive. When I told her how she was hurting my feelings she got this big smile!! It made me very mad.
I don't why I didn't put my foot down and walked out. She lives far away and I guess I didn't want to drive all the way back alone at night. So she said I could sleep with her on her futon, but nothing else. I wanted to be with her so bad, so I said was was too upset to sleep, and asked her to hold me to calm me down. It's not like it was a mean trick or anything. She asked me close my eyes again. I asked why and she said just close your eyes and try to sleep. When I opened my eyes, I felt a loss of time, and she looked different like she was somehow offended . I asked her to hold me again, and she asked why, and I felt this strange urge to tell the truth, but I didn't really, and I told her it was because I was too upset to sleep. She said you know that's not why and sounded very accusatory.
The next morning she accused me of trying to trick her into sex. For some odd reason I said you know that only because you hypnotised me. She acted a bit surprised and said "you knew?" Later, she asked me to close my eyes, and I told her I didn't want her to keep hypnotising me!! I asked her why she kept doing it to me and wouldn't answer. She then asked if she could tell me a story, and then I remember her asking me if I was OK and my eyes were closed!! Still I didn't know what happened at the time and guess I thought I was tired. I left a little while afterwards, still not realizing what happened again. That was the last time I heard from her.
Afterwards talking to my friends I had no recollection of ever being hypnotised, or her admitting it, and couldn't even remember some of the sex stuff she did that maybe embarrassed her that I know now. I can't stop thinking about what happened. Now that I realize what she did to me I feel very violated, cheap and used, like I was *raped* I'm not sure what to do.
So I've started to do some research on hypnosis. My questions are, is there any way to discover what happened while I was "blacked out"? I would like to know what was said, and what suggestions she might have made.
While this happened several months ago, is it possible that I could still be under a suggestion, perhaps one that has not been triggered yet?
Since she hypnotized me so easily on later occasions, is it possible that she planted a trigger, perhaps a single word, that induces a trance? Am I in any danger if she tries to call me on the phone or if she speaks to me again? Since we know many of the same people, who I don't think have any idea what she does, it is likely that I will run into her again someday.
L.
Although I'm not sure if I was compelled to do something from a hypnotic suggestion, I am quite sure that I was suggested to forget things that I am now only starting to remember. It all started the night I first met her. We were on the couch. She asked if I could close my eyes. I asked her why. She said it was a "relaxation technique" that she used on her lover (who was off somewhere else). I closed my eyes. I don't remember anything after that, until my eyes were open again. I felt very relaxed, and emotionally attracted to her. After a while, she got up, came back back a few minutes later, asked me to close my eyes again. I did.
Later on that night, I saw her sitting with this boy with his eyes closed and thought nothing of it at the time.
A week or so later, she tells me that her relationship was broken up (it was true), and asked if we could go out. We were getting along fine. She was being very provocative and I developed this extreme physical attraction to her. I don't think that would require hypnosis. She is very attractive.
We went back to her place. I got upset over something mean she did. She was acting like she had no idea what I was talking about. She asked me to close my eyes. I was like why would you want me to close my eyes that wouldn't do anything. She insisted, so I did. I didn't know anything about hypnosis, but I had an inkling that is was happened before when we were on the couch. So I remember thinking "OK, I'll just close my eyes and listen and try to catch her if she starts something". I can only remember having that thought now, months later. I never did. I remember finding myself with my eyes closed. She asked if I was OK,. Things seemed different. A felt a loss of time. She seemed angry about something, but denied it. I dropped what I was angry about in the first place and I'm not sure why.
She was acting very cold and distant, and wouldn't talk about it. I felt like she didn't trust me. She let me play with her hair. Later, she smoked something. I didn't. She She was telling me I was really pretty and stuff, and became sexually aggressive in an odd way which made me feel weird. The thing was that she liked doing things to me, often literally behind my back, but would freak out and seem scared and move across the room if I tried to do anything to her. She kept telling me that she just got out of a big relationship. I confronted her that I felt like she was teasing me, but she was very rude and evasive. When I told her how she was hurting my feelings she got this big smile!! It made me very mad.
I don't why I didn't put my foot down and walked out. She lives far away and I guess I didn't want to drive all the way back alone at night. So she said I could sleep with her on her futon, but nothing else. I wanted to be with her so bad, so I said was was too upset to sleep, and asked her to hold me to calm me down. It's not like it was a mean trick or anything. She asked me close my eyes again. I asked why and she said just close your eyes and try to sleep. When I opened my eyes, I felt a loss of time, and she looked different like she was somehow offended . I asked her to hold me again, and she asked why, and I felt this strange urge to tell the truth, but I didn't really, and I told her it was because I was too upset to sleep. She said you know that's not why and sounded very accusatory.
The next morning she accused me of trying to trick her into sex. For some odd reason I said you know that only because you hypnotised me. She acted a bit surprised and said "you knew?" Later, she asked me to close my eyes, and I told her I didn't want her to keep hypnotising me!! I asked her why she kept doing it to me and wouldn't answer. She then asked if she could tell me a story, and then I remember her asking me if I was OK and my eyes were closed!! Still I didn't know what happened at the time and guess I thought I was tired. I left a little while afterwards, still not realizing what happened again. That was the last time I heard from her.
Afterwards talking to my friends I had no recollection of ever being hypnotised, or her admitting it, and couldn't even remember some of the sex stuff she did that maybe embarrassed her that I know now. I can't stop thinking about what happened. Now that I realize what she did to me I feel very violated, cheap and used, like I was *raped* I'm not sure what to do.
So I've started to do some research on hypnosis. My questions are, is there any way to discover what happened while I was "blacked out"? I would like to know what was said, and what suggestions she might have made.
While this happened several months ago, is it possible that I could still be under a suggestion, perhaps one that has not been triggered yet?
Since she hypnotized me so easily on later occasions, is it possible that she planted a trigger, perhaps a single word, that induces a trance? Am I in any danger if she tries to call me on the phone or if she speaks to me again? Since we know many of the same people, who I don't think have any idea what she does, it is likely that I will run into her again someday.
L.