Underestimating myself

[5il3nc3r]

I know I have a problem but I have no idea how to fix it.
Basically, I have 0 dignity, 0 self-esteem. I don't believe in myself. So much that when I think of myself in the future, I see myself as someone who'll die at home and will be discovered a week later or something.

I never go out, mostly because I don't like going out and I have no reason to going out. I don't like smoking, I don't like drinking, I don't like dancing. I have no interests that happen outside. All I like is anime and video games. We don't have anime clubs/cons where I live. And mostly everyone thinks of anime as childish so it's not really gonna help to meet people.

There are no video games related stuff outside either (heck, we don't even have an arcade) -_-

I know I have a problem, but I don't know where to start.

[Don]

Hello, 5il3nc3r.

Knowing that you have a problem is a great place to start!

Unfortunately, we are not set up to give you therapy here.

But there is good news for you! Hypnotherapists and NLP practitioners deal with this type of issue all the time. You can quickly and easily resolve this.

There is also more standard psychological help for you that is available in your area where you can receive assistance, but in different ways.

So seek out NLP, hypnotherapeutic, or psychological assistance in your area. The sooner you do it the sooner you'll feel better about yourself! If money is a concern, you can get help through your school (if you're going to school) or through the county mental health association.

Change and happiness is just around the corner for you! The fact that you have asked here is a great start. The next step is up to you.

Good luck!

[Stoic]

Try looking at Meetup.com
They have a variety of different interests across the world, also... Try to organize what is important to you. If you have no premise to measure its productivity, go by happiness.
I did what Don advised, and from a person that was in somewhat similar shoes I can tell you that it offered me a new perspective on things. But having your priorities organized might make it a bit easier when you meet them.
However, it all depends on how good they are, so be selective. I was fortunate enough to talk with someone with a very similar belief system as mine, so there was progress in every aspect of my life.